On my therapist

I have a bittersweet relationship with psychotherapy.


And it's been always very amusing and quite funny for me torturing my very nice PhD student therapist about the validity of what she's doing. She always comes to me suggesting doing this test or that therapeutic technique or whatever, and I'm like: "Uhmm, is this statistically proven to work? like, which paper has that been published on?" And that would trigger her faceless features to turn into widening eyes and a serious non-smiling grin, changes her fixture to be more directed at me, and then she starts speaking faster about how : "dude, it's like published in this and that and I will lend you the books next time."

The only reason I started seeing a therapist a few months ago, is because I had this healthy reevaluation of friendships that led to me going as a lone wolf for some time, but, ya, positive/supportive friends ALWAYS beat therapists, because what I believe in is: we know the answer, or at least I do know the answers to all the BS going on in my life, and I just need someone to lend an ear!

The reason I am bothering to write this is because I followed some advice she gave me (that she spent like half a session arguing for) against what I had initially set my mind on, and it BACKFIRED as I expected and ruined my plans!

It's like going to a pretty bad restaurant, and then you're like: "okay, I tried it once. I know it's sh*tty by now- not ever going again."--- EXCEPT, this time I got food poisoning!!